I took a sort of “year-off” during the covid crisis to work on myself, make a total change of the way I am eating, and enjoy this opportunity to make a major breakthrough in who I am and what I want to do in my adult life.
It mights seem a little strange to my readers that I used the expression “adult life”, but there is more than just being over 18 or having responsibilities. With the great help of a professional, I discovered that I had never really “officially” expressed my views and, kind of showed to my parents that now this is my life and that these are my choices. That their opinions, are, what they are, and I am keen to accept to hear them out, but, it won’t change my own choices.
I also evacuated questions and subjects I was too shy or shameful to talk to with them. And THIS is such a weight off my shoulders, I feel I can now conquer my life and live free of fences.
Like for example, let’s say you always had the feeling that your mother, for some reasons, were putting your siblings first and not you. Well this is the kind of things you don’t want to keep for yourself until they eventually die. This is much more important than you would think, to evacuate this thoughts from your mind by mostly sharing them with your parents. It’s not easy, and there will be emotions and probably tears in the process but this will finally allow you to live your LIFE.
This had an indirect effect on my diet. I have been doing an important change on how I eat during the last 6 months and I was always struggling with some sort of bulimia phases where I would eat and eat and eat until I could not physically swallow anymore. This was an unconscious way to evacuate the stress and was therefore destroying all my diet efforts.
I am now weighting as much as 7 years ago which is so far an amazing achievement.
I am not hungry and am not restricting myself too much. It’s important in those kind of life-changing diet to have a very strong mindset in what your goals are and how not to let it go. The benefits of this weight loss and diet are far more than just feeling lighter. I have greatly improved my self confidence, it is always an amazing feeling to fit in clothes you would not have imagined to wear again, or to go from XXL to XL for polos for example.
I also greatly improved my sleep, I use to be a total insomniac, sometimes not sleeping for 4 nights in a row and suffering a lot, and of course having to eat more to cope with the sleep depravation. I also enjoy much more to climb stairs, in fact, I don’t realize at all that I am climbing them. Also I could notice great effect of my heart rate. I basically went from an average 130 BPM while walking fast to 100BPM. Same for resting heart rate, went from about 85BPM to 65BPM.
I had to drastically reduce my alcohol consumption for good, the good news is that if you are socially drinking there are now many 0% alcohol alternatives. The funny effect is that now one glass of beer makes me tipsy and that’s in a way a cheaper way to have fun. I don’t miss it too much so that went fine.
I also had to stop caffeinated coffee, at first I had switched to deca coffee but it really misses the good nice taste of a good coffee and eventually dropped it. I was drinking way to much long coffee during days at work, which was having a very negative impact on my insulin even though I would not put sugar in it. This was the most important impact on my weight loss after all those years.
It was not all perfect though, there was also an unexpected negative effect that I did not anticipate, unfortunately, I did hurt my knee because my weight loss induced big changed in the knee support and therefore caused some pain. It’s also king of pricey to have to renew my whole closet, I am trying to do it smart and wait for my final goal to be reached.
There was some very difficult moments where my weight would not go down for a month even though i was making efforts, it passed but OMG it was a hard time. But it did not change my diet or tried to eat less, eating less is the biggest mistake because you will pay for it and not in a good way with like food craves at night for example. I forgot to mention that I do not snack between meals and drink a lot of water or lemon ginger hot water.
This whole change is having such a great effect on my self confidence, even though I haven’t work for a year now, I am so grateful I could spend time for my own good. I feel confident for whatever the future might be, I am keen to work on many projects and future achievements.